Sunday, June 26, 2005
i reeeeali wonder how some sacry spooks alwaes manage to find their wae to my blog even aft i've MOVED... my god... dun u get e msg? U r not welcome here.... we may hv been 'frens' many many yrs ago but not anymore i guess.. its like everyone whom i noe tt noes u doesn reali like u... hope u noe hu u r man...
anywae, as alwaes, i dun update my blog on a regular basis... sometimes i rmb.. but im too lazy... sometimes i jus dun hv e time... term test is drawing nearer n nearer every second... i can feel e walls closin in on me as the days pass... im reali reali freaked out... term test consists of a rather big percentage of course work, hence if u fail it, u'll prob fail ur coursework and b de-barred fr e exam... then ull hv to take e supplementary paper when everyone's enjoyin n realaxin n partyin awae... n u HAVE to pass it. if u dun, happy repeatin tt particular subject for another semester, aft everyone ard u has graduated...
n e thing is, u wil nv get into e Director's Honours List and get a Diploma with Merit... Shawn told me. Uh-ho.
i pray and hope for nothing but e best to come my wae... im reali tryin to concentrate now n absorb all the CMSY info.... its a killer subject. I stil hv 3 more subjects to worry about. o god. im prayin i can chiong in peace durin term break!!
rite now, im actuali racking my half-dead, lazy n extremely sleepy brain on how to start on that ridiculous 600-900 word piece of expository writing.. n i thot it was all over aft e 'O's... looks like i was wrong. im in for it. My writing skills hv all been thrown outta e window n i cant seem to find and gather em back. I need inspiration... chocolates? a sense of fulfilment? him? nothing seems to b able to get my ass going!!
i haven been penning any poems/songs like i used to. n now i dun even noe wad to crap about on this blog.
this is wad u call writer's block. or so i think.
DEBRA: hey babe... i noe we haven met up in awhile n we've both been busy.... cant waitta meet up during my term break!! u noe i love u... i miss our class 4/4 v v much... life in poly is fun n e frens r fine but nothing beats my GAL PALS -U n Cheryl... dun let anyone bully u k... u noe hu im talkin bout... e one u told me bout on e phone.. haha... hope ur doin good.. let's go Pasta Mania kk??!! Yummy!!!! Cant wait!!! *sMuCkZz*
NURUL: halo babe!! thnx for comfortin me on sat nite.. i reali needed those words of encouragement... dun b so pessimistic... ur a great fren!! i mean it... n thnx for promising to keep my secret... tt prob i told u bout... stil v hurt... haiz but guess i shld jus let go n let nature take its course.. i guess time wil heal.. love u... rmb i hv to cook pasta n eggs for u hor!! wahaha... c u!!
been feelin reali down n hurt... in one super short week, so many things happened. i reali regret some things, n i wish things didn end up e wae they did so far... but sometimes i reali dunmean to do or sae e things i do... external factors make me react the wae i do... o... wil someone pls understand??
nostalgia is my solace.... e memories of frens n e happy times we shared... e tears n laughter we've all been thru together... i love u
Cheryl n Debra.... i miss u.
vivacious vixen <3