Monday, August 29, 2005
The following words are adapted from a
certain someone's blog:
"Hmm. Honestly, i did something today BUT some ppl just dun seem to appreciate it. Bleargh.It really doesnt pay to change huh. The old me wouldnt have bothered to apologise. And i`m not the sorta person who leaves the mess i`ve created. i clean up after myself eventually. Well, all i can say is, i`ve done my part. if that person`s not gonna accept my apology, THEN SO BE IT (: i know i can say a whole load of things to defend myself, but no, i didnt. too bad lar. not my loss. neither is it her loss. it`s fair. and square (: "Well, for those readin this entry, and to
the person responsible for the above post, I would like to sae a few words.
1. Did YOU just use the word "change"? O.M.G. u obviously hv no sense of judgement upon urself. If u hv reali CHANGED, i dun think u wld hv had the instinct to use vulgarities on me indirectly just because i refused YOUR offer to be "friends". YOU shld b glad i'm keepin it cool w YOU at e moment because of certain consequences. O, wait, i dun think YOU've ever heard of the word "consequences". Tsk tsk. My Condolences. =)
2. YOU think i'm stupid? Dumb? a Pushover? well, honey, i'm sorry. i guess i'm more Alert than u actuali think i m. wad exactly are YOU tryin to pull? Firstly, YOU go round playing guys & getting a SiCkEnInG sense of satisfaction by breaking their hearts. Secondly, YOU think YOU own the world n are free to do anything and everything YOU like to others, but others aren't allowed to ScReW YOU at all. Hail the Almighty-YOU.
3. Yes, YOU may hv apologized and TrIeD to clean up the shit YOU left behind. But reali, Did YOU hv to create a BiGGeR Pile.Of.Shit. by using vulgarities on me behind my back? If YOU're that thick-skinned, Dun do it in e dark la. It makes me realize the P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C inscribed on ur forehead. Just bring it on and Say.It.To.My.Face.
4. Whether I accept YOUR apology or not, does it really matter to YOU?? In the 1st place, why wld YOU wanna humiliate meee and piss me off, when i hv done nth wrong to YOU at all?? Let me explain to YOU why i'm being such a FUCKTARD. (oooh, sounds familiar?? YOUR trademark word.) Firstly, YOU humiliated meee. (To add oil to the fire, in front of HIM.) Secondly, YOU apologized, I about accepted it in my heart n I sincerely, genuinely thought we cld give this "friendship" another chance, but YOU had to screw it all up using vulgarites on me, behind my back. To top it all off, YOU left a sickening post on ur blog aiming at me indirectly. YOU are one amazing, beautiful woman. Well Done. *clapclap*
5. WHY? YOU're feeling insecure? Puh-Leease. YOU reali insult meee. I am not a f***in' BF snatcher/heartbreaker/BITCH/FUCKTARD. Why shld YOU feel threatened just bcos i USED to like YOUR sweetheart?? Like, hv I ever made a single move ever since you 2 hv been blissfully back "2gether" again?? NOOOO. All I did was wish YOU both the best, and YOU took my kindness for granted and made a fool outta meee. Which I absolutely cannot tolerate. And YOU did it TWICE. Tsk Tsk.
6. My Conclusion is, YOU didn't succeed in cleaning up YOUR shit, but instead hv made things worse. I'm reali sori things hv turned into such a twisted mess. I pity those caught in btw this sickening issue. WHAT THE FUCK HV I EVER DONE TO YOU TO DESERVE ALL THIS?? Dun get me wrong, I'm not scared of YOU. I'm just fed up & appalled. And I'm keepin it cool n being discreet about it bcos we're stuck in e same LT for 3 whole yrs, n e possibility of us ending up in e same class some dae is very, very high. So, let's jus stop feuding n smile whenever we see each other, shall we? To avoid any UGLY circumstances at all. Be it FRIENDS or ACQUAINTANCES, YOU can be rest assured I WILL NOT screw things up for YOU or give YOU a FUCKTARD's ATTITUDE. Okie?? For the sake of our faces, and the fact that we're more or less stuck w each other for the nx 2-over yrs, I'll let all this shit go n jus smile whenever I see YOU, and things r gonna b e same as b4. Unless of course, YOU try anything funny w me again. Then dun blame me. *shakes hand* I hope YOU took my hand. =)
To everyone who has just read this post, sorry for the vulgarities. I'm reali sorry if i appear to b such a bitch, but u guys noe its purely unintentional. if NOTHING rocked my boat, I wldn b here letting all this shit out. For those of you hu noe e whole truth, pls forgive this poor friend of yours. *sobs* I'm still the same happy-go-lucky, sentimental, humble, fierce, loud and totally insane Sarak Khor. Thank You for your kind understanding and loving support.
Btw, Ivan's bdae bbq went great! A few of us got insanely drunk, so u can imagine e chaos. haha. damn fun la! I lurb my Joyce & Ivan kor-kor beri beri much!!! & bah-chor-mee supper at 4am w Tim was cool... tt totali sobered me up fr e vodka... thank God i dun hv a hangover... faithful prayers alwaes work. my mum's pickin me up at 12pm for lunch n a movie.. sianz.. i'm damn stoned fr e lack of slp. bleaghs.
Happy Bdae BRO!!! *weeehoooweee
-I Love All My Friends.-
vivacious vixen <3