Thursday, September 01, 2005
there are times where one has to quit complaining about the adversities of life, and spare a little moment to count all the unseen blessings we have been granted, which we have overlooked as a result of our stubborn ignorance.
hence, i'd like to say, with all the extreme clubbing and havoc partying sessions i've indulged in life, i really thank God for watching over me and keeping me safe and sound. evidence lies in a few circumstances which make me what i am today:
1. despite countless bfs, i'm still intact. (if u noe wad i mean)
2. i've never been raped.
(for the benefit of the oblivious ppl living in their own perfect lil' world, there are countless unreported cases of teens being raped by their bfs or any other guy in their defenseless state of drunken stupor. most victims choose not to report their cases in order to save face and hide their shame. foolish act, yes, but reporting a rape case, especially, involves a lot of unassociated characters and can blow up and ruin your whole life and reputation.) Trust Me. My friend was raped. and she reported it initially, but when the son-of-a-bitch policemen started making things difficult and complicating the whole matter, and pulling all sorts of unassociated people in for statements and stuff, she withdrew the report. that DAMN AFRICAN guy got awae scot-free.)
Lesson Learnt: Never EVER leave ur drinks unattended. Watch over them like a hawk.
3. i've never tried drugs, let alone seen a real-life sample. DRUGS ARE EVIL. (ok fine i used to fag, but it's been a looong time since i've lit up. i HATE the smell now.)
my past "friends" used to indulge drugs like ecstacy, K, ,55, and despite having free access to a pill or two, no way man. i'm too afraid to lose control of my mind and body.
hell yea, i've never even gone COMPLETELY drunk from alcohol. VERY HIGH, yes. INSANE, yes. but never totally GONE. that explains blessings no. 1 & 2. =)
however, i AM addicted to something rather serious. MY LAPTOP. -DIE-
it's not funny. im serious. i get withdrawal symtoms if i dun switch it on n use it the minute i get hm, or the minute i get up from bed. it's a HUGE source of distraction from my books. i hate this. i need to exercise self-control (which i completely lack). now i noe y my dad used to moniter my computer usage. despite the fact he's a bastard, i now see the logic behind his ridiculous act.
i reckon it's time for a
blogging hiatus. until exams r over, that is, which wld be nx Friday. i am going to ask my grandma to lock up my latop in her cupboard rite after this post. -sobs-
sigh. tuition at 2pm with
Maggy. well, at least i hv an adorable student. i'm just plain lazy!!
let's see how long i can abstain from my sexy black keyboard.
until then ppl.
~I MISS YOU BADLY~
vivacious vixen <3