and this is the way my life is, bitch.

Monday, September 19, 2005

the short weekend spent in Malacca felt like a whole week. the trip was pretty enjoyable, i have to admit. food was great. shopping was fun, though i only ended up with 2 pairs of sandals & a cute monkey t-short which i accidentally threw down the rubbish chute last nite in the midst of clearing my room to make space for my new sandals. WTF.

i almost bought a flowy beige bohemian skirt, a brown-laced white one, and a micro-mini denim skirt. it was so short it was rite up my bum, and kinda lian too. i loved it, but my cousin said it was too short & i didn hv e legs to carry it off. i was like.... whatever larhh. well, in any case, i think tt's soooo not true. not that i'm BHB, but i noe what i hv n wad i dun. great. so i ended up with no new clothes at all. P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C.

ok, i'm in a bitchy mood rite now. everythin's screwed up.

-my obsession with that Topshop denim mini skirt is affecting my senses. On top of that, i'm reali running outta clothes to wear, and i dun dare to ask Mummy for some shopping allowance cos she just spent about $4oo in total on my i-pod mini & charger.

-my gd fren&ex-classmate is leaving for Japan for good tonite and i cant stae out that late to send her off. we haven't met in months.

-i'm too lazy to start my supposed circuit training regime with Joel & i'm FAT.

-i'm too lazy to have extra tuition with Maggy so that i can claim my salary earlier in the month.

-i'm lost as to how to surprise Shawn on his birthday. (hope he doesn't read this)

-i'm hoping job-hunting with Jean tmr will be a success. I'm seriously broke & I neeed a job.

-I have yet to start studying for supp papers. Results will be out in approx. 5 days. God help me.

-I'm pondering over whether to go for the party @ Cocolatte on Wed... cos I'm broke & there's just so many more important things to do (if you've read the above).

-last but not least, i'm sick of my current template but am too lazy to change it.

i reali dunno what's happening to me. i'm losing touch with my frens, and i seem to have lost my passion for clubbing and late nights. what happened to my coffee-talk-chilling sessions, and my pre-planned girls-day-outings?? my current "hide-away" mode is probably due to my weight-gain, broke-ness & an onset of low self-esteem. perhaps i reali ought to go ahead with my jogging plans w Joel. perhaps some serious sweating might be able to lift my spirits.

I MISS JOYCE & MY BRO. I miss chilling out w 'em. I miss the incomplete lunches due to excessive bouts of laughter.

ok, i'm gonna try & convince as many peeps as i can to join me on the tracks tonite. i hope my enthusiasm will sustain.

indeed, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

vivacious vixen <3